Ponderings

Am i the only one just hearing about this Filipino singer called Charice. She's pretty good.

I hate Periods and i'm tempted to curse Eve for putting us through this. I have a short one and i don't break out or have cramps, but for one i'm so sleepy and tired for days before and then i get so hormonal, everything makes me cry or laugh or get irritated. Sigh. I've said it i absolutely refuse to be like this when i'm pregnant i'm telling you God now. I must be the happiest person ever. And i swear down like people know you are on or about to be on your period, they start to take the piss. Like, for crying out loud can you not tell that this is the absolute worst time to try to mess with me. I'm good at pretending though, so all of this is in my head and looking at me you could never tell, i have the brightest smile pasted on, and looking as good as i can be. Today i am wearing pink (i hate pink), yesterday a bright green and white( i hate green) tomorrow i'm sure it will be yellow (i hate yellow). Black is my favorite color if you cant already tell. 

This dude at work damn near molested me today, really rubbing my back and giving me an unwarranted hug. Like dude i don't even know you like that and cos he is Nigerian i even always bend to greet him. Was so pissed, and i was afraid he was going to unhook my bra right there infront of everyone, that was the beginning of the fuckery that was today.

BB didn't help. Moving on. Supervisor was just extra irritating today. Sigh. School said i was owing them something, so that has delayed this whole process and i won't be hearing back from them till about the end of the month. I have faith, i believe and i have claimed it, but God knows my insides are about to tear up.

If your boyfriend/the guy you are talking to, whatever you want to call it these days, offers to buy you a ticket someplace, not that you are going to see him, but he knows you want to go to said location, will you accept? Is it pride if you don't? What do you think the persons reason(s) for not accepting is/are? Why should one accept? 

Which reminds me my friend on twitter said today "if you don't have a main chic, then your side chic is your main chic, stop fronting" Translation yes you are not officially dating her, don't think you can marry her but as long as you don't have that "one" and she is the one you do everything with, then she is your chic, stop fronting.

Apparently i watch a lot of movies, i just don't remember their names, same thing with books. I tell you i have a solid combination of defense mechanisms. My favorite are repression and selective memory. 

Why do people that are sick refuse to do something about it? Yes you shouldn't always run to the Doctor but thank God for self medication and home/natural remedies and your local pharmacist you know. I really think though that except you are majorly preoccupied in your life, people especially women know when their body is failing them, you need to be in tune with your body. But i am the first person to know how you can be so preoccupied with your life,in your brain that you neglect your body, hence the women you see who pee and see that they are delivering babies. That shit is still funny to me. hheheheh 

Did you know psychology is considered art and not science? Didn't know that till i got my degree, i thought i was getting a Bsc and i end up with a BA. I think writing should be considered science and not art. There is something strangely scientific about the art of writing. Don't you think? I swear thats why i cant write these days ,something is missing on one side of the equation or has been replaced either way at least in my life this has become one complicated quadratic equation with no answer. I don't make sense.

I wonder why people like me. Don't know why i wonder about it but i do, and i never ask. Boyfriend/bestfriend/even my own folks. Do you wonder the same? i wonder if my kids would love me like i love my folks. I wonder if i've ever made a difference, changed one's opinion. I wonder about a lot of things anyhoos so this is not news.

I don't pretend to be what i am not. I am a cheap skate i realize, lol. My brain is overly active, like you can't already tell. My bestfriend says its going to be about her and her husband, like he comes first over the kids. I say its going to be about me and my kids, they come first before my husband. That my friends is the direct influence of upbringing, never let it be said that environment is not instrumental and if you ask the me the greatest influence on a person. Nature wins everytime people, nature wins over nurture every time.

BB inspires me, don't tell him i said so.

Time heals ALLLLLLLLLLLL(for emphasis) All wounds. I choose not to explain this, i strongly believe it, think of it what you will. 

Excited for the world cup, saturday is going to be awesome and yes i think Nigeria is going to get their butt kicked.

I'm happy that i know most if not all of you, even behind this computer, i feel a part of a world beyond my wildest belief, because you share your thoughts and allow me to share mines. 

Anyhoo, Praise Thursday tomorrow, topic is Giving. Drop names of songs if you have any.

P.S I LOVE YOU