New Beginnings

"Stop your worrying, because God is in control of your tomorrow"...... Hi guys, of course you know the verse in the bible that i have hugely paraphrased. In my life right this minute, it happens to be the sentence that most describes me.

I don't know anything, i don't know what i'm doing, i don't know the plan, i just know that i have packed all my belongings and uprooted to Jersey to start school next week. How i'm going to get to school, how i'm going to pay for school, how i'm going to get books for school, i  have absolutely no idea. I just know that a week ago, i had planned to maybe postpone to September again, and then my mum called an aunt, and before my mum could finish talking she offered to let me come stay.

As i sit in my room, with my own tv (no closet or personal bathroom sha, lol), i can't help but thank God. I've driven to a lot of places before and this was the smoothest, no traffic, no accident, no construction, no cops, no bad weather, nothing. I made an 11 hour drive in a lil over 9hours. The warmth in which my aunt i had never met and her husband(he is oyinbo, and she is oyinbo-fied) have received me, you would think there was something more to it.

So i don't know and i'm beginning to think and maybe accept the fact that its not my business to know. Even with my relationship, everybody asks me questions, i truthfully don't know as BB will say, "it will come to us in a dream"(No regrets, whatever happens still). More than that i just think for me being a control freak, the lesson here like Bimbo told me the other day is for me to take a chill pil, relax and let go of everything and everyone and let God's will be done. So i'm going to do just that.

I've been told to come back to blogging, i really don't want to be a downer, but i believe all of that is in the past anyways, cos i believe everything will be just alright, and so i will be back, give me some time to settle in. So as an appetizer i have something to say..........I want to be kissed. It really bothers me that i haven't been kissed in soooo long( I should wait till i see BB, i know, but, emmm, lol *shrugs*). It also bothers me that i have absolutely no suitors. My friend called me out on it today, maybe cos i have so many guy friends, i did not really notice. Maybe cos i have talked about BB so much(well only here really), cos if u see my tweets, lol, i'm single o and i'm not on facebook like that. So maybe its just that I've not met anyone new, cos i sat my butt home all this while, i don't know sha i'm bothered. If BB and i don't work, i will have no rebound guy, or just when i want attention from someone other than BB. Lol, this has nothing to do with how much i love that boy, i'm just being a realist jo.

Nways, i hope you are all doing well? (answer me o) i wish you all the best, i'm sure you know this and you know if you ever want to talk, you should just drop me a msg with your number or email and i will get in touch. Shout out to Sugarking for the call (he has a nice voice, ladies). Have a blessed week, all the best.

P.S I LOVE YOU