Riches on Earth

Ummmm so I don't know where to start? My blood is still boiling over – I really need to get my emotions in check lately – but yea to the story at hand….so I'm contemplating going to the gym ( which I did by the way, yayayaaaay me)when I see a high school buddy puts up a post she called her testimony – she had been in the hospital for 30days for a kidney problem – omo 19 abi 20 sha, the devil is a liar….nways me and the best friend are reading and we notice that she mentioned no one was there for her – it's funny maybe cos we are Christians and we believe in God and miracles – her finding God and being healed was not the message we got from her note – you know how sometimes the pastor starts a sermon and you don't think the message is for you, but then there is just one line, one particular word you hear and hold on to – well this was that for us - the fact that she mentioned that through it all she was alone -her fam in naija( her mum was able to come later and bro came when he could), and friends were on vacation so those not in naija were home – was wat she told me – so I ask her cos I see her on chat what happened to your boyfriend – apparently they had broken up some days before she fell sick -so I ask her don't you have a best-friend – where was she? Reply "she called me every-day to ask me when I will leave the hospital to go party" - to the Glory of God she survived, esp through people who called to pray for and with her

Now you all know that I put my friends on a pedestal – and maybe maybe I am mistaken and I haven't really been through enough for my friends to prove themselves to me – but I do know about myself – she could not have been my best-friend and they didn't have a bed beside her for me – even if I was in naija and she was here, I will be buying a ticket, and my folks will be paying for it, talk-less of when I start making my own money…..and that's just me – but truth is I will bet my whole life that my best-friend would the same – and she won't be alone

I remember sometimes earlier this year when we lost a friend that I wasn't even so close too – but my brother was and so were a whole bunch of other people I knew –they didn't tell me she was sick until that day and I showered and drove an 1hr plus to see her, was there all day, praying to God for her life – unfortunately she still passed – I'm not a saint – I'm not even a good person truth be told – but if there is one thing I believe in its in friends – I don't play with my family and friends – I will kill for my family and friends, and yet I will be the same person who will call a friend out on something

This is my theory – my friends have been my riches on earth – I won't be where I am without them – wasn't I just talking about this last week the other day – when did people become so self absorbed, so horrible? Why don't we value each other, our friends? Am I being judgmental by thinking she needs a totally new set of friends – am I too trusting and maybe none of my friends would show up for me if I was in such a position – except shu even in smaller things my friends have proven themselves – I was so hurt I cried when she kept saying she learnt her lessons and humans would fail you, don't trust anyone – even the ex boyfriend, apart from the two I don't talk to, I don't know of any of my ex boyfriends that wouldn't have come to look for me even if its only for a day – am I being irrational? Maybe she wasn't a good friend hence the payback….maybe I am naïve in my thinking- but you can have all the riches in the world and yet I am wealthier than you for each friend I have –

I don't know I'm rambling now – but are you as hurt as I feel? Am I misyarning? Am I stupid? Do I care too much for my friends? Am i in for a shock in the future? Ha whatever yo I stand by my precepts and theories – but pls feel free to talk about this, discuss, tell me what you think –however harsh? Boiling again – lol I am officially insane

Yo btw God has shown himself magnificent in my life again as always – I will be telling you all about it around this time tomorrow – take care