I can paint a picture with a Pen

I have a respect for words so let me start by saying that I am sorry again for not writing yday....and with that said, I take back the promise that I will write everyday, instead I promise that this blog continues for me for a while with at least a post each week......

I was going to tell you about my busy day at work and about how fab I looked in my LBD(little black dress)....I know vain vain, but I did look fab and as such I've decided I need to be rich so that I can have a whole wardrobe of LBD's....can I hear an Amen....instead, I'm just going to write as I see fit....I hope u like it......


Sum1 told me today that I fall too hard.....granted he is right, I only afterall met HE(the subject of my affection)...like 7months ago....but here is my thing......I know guys who have I known forever and who claim to love me but don't feel the need to communicate everyday, talkeless show me said love....granted our paths have varied and come back...but my understanding of Love and by this I mean with sumone that you want a relationship with, is that you work for it, across time differences, across oceans...u entail to keep it going for that point at which u meet.....most of said guys I've become good friends with "backups" as I like to call them cos... hey!!!we are young...and no one knows the future.....exactly my point though.....why not work with what you have and put ur everything into it and let the chips fall as they may?.....cos maybe this one is "the one" and if not....u cry and you move on......

Of one thing I am certain...That Love is Uncertain.....and holds no guarantees.....U love for today and if I am alive tomorrow to Love again then I make sure to take advantage of it.....My Mum has four kids for my dad and they have been divorced more years than they were ever married.....So believe me its more than Love.....it takes a lot to be with sum1....like the Bible said Love is Kind, Patience, Longsuffering and so many other things I wont quote.....but all I'm saying is that as long as I'm not sleeping around and all I'm doing is giving my heart, then I think that I'm more blessed than most will ever be.....

Another thing I am certain of......my friendship with you matters a lot to me, and I dont want to ever ruin it because I fell in Love....a man is not an island, and friends especially childhood friends, know how to hold you down and put you in your place.....with that said if u like me/ liked me, and u dont like my relationship with sum1 or want me for yourself.....speak or forever hold your peace......its not that complicated, at which point I will tell you why its not an option and hopefully remain friends.....and the same thing with female friends......speak your mind, its up to me if I don't listen......thats how I define friendship nways......

Let me end by saying this....Do more than exist, Live and Love.....

I hope that helps clarify sum things for you as u read this.......be comfortable with your decisions and for some others here step off your high horse and stop judging others....and for some stop tripping on what's infront of you because you looking behind...ok I'm done giving advise.....I'm only 22 afterall and I'm not as wise as I think....

so long.....o and we have less than 200hrs now guys....lol...notice I say "we"...cos u all have been helping me each step of the way......Yay to 198hrs left